Look back to the last 2 Weeks #1

[scytheandserpent]

 "Journaling for me means that I can stop to my thoughts and actually think. When combined with a candle flame, it's pretty much meditation" - Scythe Dec 2025

"It's Morning. Hot cup of Cocoa, Journal and a Candle. ... That sounds like an Instagram title." 

 

I want to try this thing out. I wanna be more active in here, and... I wanna write an honest review on the last two weeks of my life. See how I have been feeling and all. So! Let's do it. 

 

I have been thinking of publishing a Poem collection called the Flame of a Scythe. Or Viikatteen Valkeat in Finnish ^^ It will be published in Finnish for now, but I will see what I can do to Poem enjoyers around the world. 

 

Mood swings have been recorded from ups to downs to ups to downs. Within the same day. It goes from Struggling with Want and Need. Been very tired due to it. I have been doing not so good CCwise- I want to make more content, but it's mostly just... Flop after flop. And then we take a nosedive down with starting line of "I hate myself.". Self hate is something I have been struggling with a lot lately- Hence why I have a bit of help as well, someone small yet powerful... *A Symbiote*. Okay maybe there's a lot of Bad instead of good-- But I am enjoying the good nonetheless. Because who wants only darkness... Eyes have been dry, money causing stress.

 

And talking of Symbiotes- Did some Embroidery and watched Venom with Arahabaki. Embroided him :D It was fun. Fingers hurt afterwards tho. Arahabaki is the name of my Symbiote :D Need to map out the Inner world or Headspace. Need to name the Gatekeeper... 

 

I started watching Hermitcraft again, this time switching POV from Grian to Tangotek. I also wanted to start streaming again. Wanted to Stream on multiple days, but ended up streaming on one day only in these 2 weeks- "I wish to Stream, to read, but I don't know...". Planned a Reading stream, but that didn't happen. Talking of Content creation, Got two peeps hired for my Content creation team. I also tried to Stream some Snufkin and the Melody of the Moominvalley. Buuut I forgot to enable streamer mode and had the VTuber model blocking the chat- *I know what I am doing, trust :D*

 

VC'd with a friend, collected TTRPGs, both duet and solo. Spoke about meeting up with him yet again. We live on the opposite sides of the globe- It's difficult for us to meet, but we keep dreaming about it ^^ Planned on meeting an old friend, codename Dove. It didn't work out. They cancelled in the last minute and I was pissed, but someone bigger said "Naaah". So! Thought of a way to let go of peeps who I didn't have a chance to say goodbyes to. With Memory poems. I write the memories into Poems and that's about it- It's all that matters. 

 

I have been worried about being the only one who cares for the housekeeping and it hurts. Stressed out about past stuff of being forced a certain-- Mold of how clean it should be. 

 

Prayed to Grandpa to talk with Mother nature, and get us snow. It worked somehow-- I wrote a poem out of it as well ^^ Talking of poems! I found this random accidental Poem from the pages- 

 

*Poem moment*

Awful wooling in the dog's ear

Loud panting

Stressed boy

Can't hear my thougts.

It's Thursday. 

 

As for the Christmas season... Went to town to get Christmas gifts and was stressed out and angry about housework-. Christmas meal poem and some cheeky way to thank my invisible team for the year :D Sethe was against the idea, but I think I got it correctly- Poems written, clothes checked, everything done for the eve. The letter I wrote to myself last year is about to be opened in a weeks time! :D I am excited for that!